Diamond

Once my teacher+coach asked me "Do you know why Diamond is so precious?"
I told her i dont know. I only know that Diamond is the hardest natural material on earth.

The name diamond is derived from the ancient Greek ἀδάμας (adámas), "proper", "unalterable", "unbreakable, untamed", from ἀ- (a-), "un-" + δαμάω (damáō), "I overpower, I tame".
-Wikipedia-

Then she told me that Diamond can only be form deep inside the earth with a very high temperature and pressure. The higher the temperature and pressure compress on the diamond, the harder the Diamond will turn out.

This has now became the motivation of my life. Everytime when i am under pressure or stress, beside praying to God, i will keep remaining myself about the Diamond´s story and stay calm, because i am the Diamond.

I believe each pressure i face is going to make me harder and stronger till one day i will be unbreakable and untamed.

"Let pressure be the pushing strength of our life!"
-e.lo-

p/s: Thankz pn. teoh for telling me that i am a Diamond.

Almost Lover

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Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

p/s: does it remind you of anyone?

New Sem New Life

My new semester is starting tomorrow. Am I ready for it?
Studying in Germany is totally different than studying in Malaysia."I guess"
The first difference I felt was "Which subject I should take this Semester?" because the University dont provide the student a timetable or what the student must do in every Semester.
(Do the University in Malaysia arrange the timetable for the Student?)
"I dont know, because I did not enter University in Malaysia."
So I have to go online to find all the information by myself. As I screwed up my 1st Semester and didnt manage to pass most of the subjects, I have a lot of catch up to do this Semester. I must retake the subjects from the 1st Semester and also continue doing my 3rd Semester in order to finish in time,(it means 10 subjects in this coming Semester?) or I can easily just repeat the 1st Semester without doing my 3rd Semester. This means I am wasting my time.

My self made time table WS09/10

So am I going to waste my time and concentrate on my 1st Semester again or putting more efforts for the old and new Subjects I am going to take?
I cant effort to waste any more time because every single minutes I waste, cost me money.
This also lead to another question. Can I handle it?
I have to study for two semester and at the same time I also have to work.
My mother keep on telling me not to stress myself but I told her "Mom, dont worry. I´ll try and pray."
As I remembered how I managed my time when I was in School with so many sports and outside activities. I am sure nothing is impossible. Only how I can make thing possible.

"I can do everything through HIM who gives me strength"
Philippians 4:13

Life is Beautiful When You Seek Him

It was the hardest tears drops of my 2 years in Germany. All of a sudden, I started to think about my life here in Germany. Is it as beautiful as it was written or was it just an illustration that I created to convince others?
After 2 years, I started working here in a fast food restaurant. Other than getting backache and feetache, I would defined my working environment as friendly. I enjoyed my working hours and I had no problems getting in the click. Sometimes even looking forward to it.
The money that I earned monthly and a little from home are enough to cover my living expenses here but my mind started to turn round and round and round. It suddenly started to run so fast that I couldn't even control it. It then started to write:
1. Money crisis?
-Do my parents still have enough money to support me?
-What will it be with my brother and sister when they want to study too?
-Can I find a grant or scholarship here?
2. Studies loaded
-How many subject I have to take?
-Am I able to deal with so many subjects? 1st Semester and 3rd Semester?
3. Time shortage
-How am I going manage my time?
-Is it possible to work and study at the same time?
This 1,2,3 flies through my mind all the time, occupying my mind and controlling my eyes with water. I didn't know what to do.
The 1st person I went to was Xmin because he is the nearest and the closet person to me at this moment. He offered help and comfort but I stress him out. Sorry dear :).
Then I tried to reach my mom but she wasn't home. So it continues running around my head Suddenly my mom called me. I tried to hide my emotion but I know I have to tell her about my financial condition because only my parents can help me. The more I went on, the heavier the water splashing from my eyes and nose´s drain was stuck so badly that my mouth could hardly breath. I worried her out. Sorry mom :).
Mom said "I know studying oversea is difficult. Learn from your mistake. I will talk to dad. Are you stress from work? Do you have enough sleep? If you are tired, then don´t work so much." Mom also said "Why are you worrying now when you didn´t for the past 2 years? Didn´t you went through all those obstacles. Remember how you ask Him and he provided. So be close to Him once again and seek Him."
Dad said " Don´t worry my daughter. I will give you my best."
Mom then asked again " Your Period coming soon ar?"
That was the answer to everything. Hahaha....lol..... :)
I felt better.

2 year in Germany and still smiling...

My life is Beautiful because I have such a great and understanding parents who are always supporting my decision and providing their best, my sister and brother who always makes my times full of joyfulness, my mumee who appear and listen to me whenever I want to express something, and xmin who is always by my side with so much patient and love that I can ever dream of.
And because I am HIS daughter.

" Let him have all your worries and cares, because he is looking after you and watching everything that concern you"
1 Peter 5:7

If You´re Not the One

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If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i

p/s: everyone is the one :)

Things only happened when you dont wait for it

It supposed to arrive on Friday but what time it will be delivered, nobody knows. So I woke up very early in the morning to wait for it. Actually I had many plans for the day but because of the waiting, I cancelled all of it because there was nothing more important than being there at the door step to welcome her to my life.
Every minutes of that day seems forever and my mind was only thinking when my bell will ring. For a moment I had a thought that maybe my bell was not working. So I went out and check if it is working. Sounds crazy and desperate but yes I did that.
Then I waited and waited till dinner time but I still havent lost my hope because I believe she will come. So I cooked my dinner with Xmin and we had a wonderful dinner that almost made me forget about her arrival.

Our Dinner...

Then suddenly "DING DONG, DING DONG, DING DONG". I jumped up with the maximum excitement and quickly ran to the door and "yes,she is here!". I was so excited to unpack her.

She was inside here...

So let me introduce my new baby gadget. One of the best and latest hand phone you can get in town. It is the combination of walkman phone and camera phone from Sony Ericsson. With some new function added like Wi-Fi, G-sensor, Sense-Me, Shake Control, Walk-Mate, You-Tube, Google-Maps and many more. So now I can go online any where and any time I want.

w705 Passionate Red...

When she is on...

p/s: Thank you Xmin for finding me such a cool hp...

Full Moon

My head were down looking at my feet taking turn hitting the ground. My feet were screaming for the life as I walked back slowly after work. After standing and working non stop for 9,5 hours my poor feet had reached its limits, but my body still needs to get home and unfortunately the help of my both feet were still needed. Every step I took reminds me of how hard every cent is earned. NOW I can UNDERSTAND and FEEL the real meaning of ‘blood sweat money’ (direct translation from Cantonese). Then I lifted up my head to the sky and thank God that he is bringing me through this state of life

As my head were up I saw this beautiful full moon. This moon really brought my mind away for a second but in just a moment of time I lost it. I don’t know if it was just an illusion or it was really there. So I keep on searching for it. Looking right and left and behind the building, and finally it was just being hidden by a very tall building. So it wasn’t an illusion. This incident really showed how tired I was.

p/s: Other than my feet hurting, my working enviroment is totally awesome. I enjoyed it!

The Great Pretender

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Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Pretending I'm doing well
My need is such
I pretend too much
I'm lonely but no one can tell

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Adrift in a world of my own
I play the game but to my real shame
You've left me to dream all alone

Too real is this feeling of make-believe
Too real when I feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown

Too real when i feel what my heart can't conceal

Oh yes, I'm the great pretender
Just laughing and gay like a clown
I seem to be what I'm not you see
I'm wearing my heart like a crown
Pretending that you're...
Pretending that you're still around

p/s: Xmin, i want the cd´s!!!original!!!

Present to Pay

Finally after 4 months of waiting, it is here. Thank you aunty I and uncle L for shipping it over to me. Let me present to you my new converse shoes........

and here goes the story....

It was actually my 22th birthday present from my GF. So since she is in Penang and i am in Germany, there is no way that she can give it to me. So she passed it to my parents to send it over to me through uncle L and aunty I.
There is this "pantang larang" saying that "never give your friends shoes as a present because they will run away from you." Atcually i never believe in "pantang-larang" because i think it is kind of stupid but i just want to make a joke, so i told my sister to give my GF 20cent when she pass her the shoes.
Our relationship was always strong and stable.We never had any fight or an arguement. But never challange the "pantang-larang" because it came true. The day before the arrival of my shoes. We decided to call off our relationship.
Sayang, It is not worth it to exchange this with our 4 years relationship.
The price was just too high and not affordable.
Thank you alot. I miss you and I love you.
I wonder if my sister did give my GF the 20cent i told her to.

p/s: Please remember never give shoes to your friends because he or she will leave you!

New Decision

I have decided to stop writing "the beautiful life of Eniale".

but no worries Readers i will not stop writting...

...because the Show must go ON!

Life is Wonderful

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It takes a crane to build a crane
It takes two floors to make a storie
It takes an egg to make a hen
It takes a hen to make an egg
There is no end to what I'm saying

It takes a thought to make a word
And it takes some words to make an action
And it takes some work to make it work
It takes some good to make it hurt
It takes some bad for satisfaction

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la

It takes a night to make it done
And it takes a day to make you young brother
And it takes some old to make you young
It takes some cold to know the sun
It takes the one to have the other

And it takes no time to fall in love
But it takes you years to know what love is
And it takes some fears to make you trust
It takes those tears to make it rust
It takes the dust to have it polished

Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la

It takes some silence to make sound
And it takes a lost before you found it
And it takes a road to go nowhere
It takes a toll to show you care
It takes a hole to see a mountain

Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life goes full circle
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love
Ah la la la la la life is wonderful
Ah la la la la la la life is meaningful
Ah la la la la la life is full of
Ah la la la la la life is so full of love

p/s: thanks B8 for sharing this song....

HaMburGeR...

HAMBURGER...
WAIT..
I AM COMING...

HaLf WaY TO K.O.

2009 MatHe´s Fight of ThE cEntuRy
10:05 AM
SpORT hAll UnI SieGEn
-Be PrEpareD to MaKE thE diFFeREntS-

WANTED

THE ETV MOST WANTED MAN 2009

produced by:
e.lo production

Lunch Box

.....this is what happen years ago
Year in 2002 in 3 white
(before miss C class)

ml: we must get the table today....
gl: but miss C wont let us out so early wan la
pz: no problem la...i will make sure that we will get out before the bell rings...
ra: how ar?
te: sure another crazy idea from pz dee...
(pz climb up the teacher's table and turn the clock 10 mins faster)
pz: hey class, today we must get the table's from that stupid seniors... so during miss C's class please do your calculation faster....ok?????? no ok also must ok ... if not copy from me ...

(miss C class)
miss C: why the line so senget, gl you know how to draw a line is it?
gl: miss C, i didnt use ruler ma ...(pz said we must be fast today)
pz: teacher, she doesnt have a ruler...hahahaha....
miss C: no ruler no future...
pz: she memang no future dee .. hahaha ...
gl: grrrhhhh....*****pz i'm going to kill you
pz: teacher, time for rehat dee...
miss C: the bell didnt ring yet, wait for the bell...be patient...
gl: teacher, you look at the clock i think the bell rosak dee
miss C looks at her watch ....
miss C: My watch was still working this morning!...class have you all finish your calculation?
class: yes*YES* fInish dee*finish long time ago dee lo*...
miss C:eyesbrown roll up* ...ok class you may go...
gl: you didnt spoil her watch rite?
pz: sioa ar, you think i so daring meh..
ml: recesss dee
(run*run*run)
ra: jom place for me, ok?
ml: pz and gl run faster, we must get the place
pz: no problem la, count on me ...this table will be ours...
ringgggggg*******
the seniors walk pass ....
pz: hahahah ....
gl: na na ni bu bu .....show touge*
ml: we won ...

(first time eating together as a class)
cm took out her food from her lunch bag.....
pz: ra, look she bring her own food from house
ra: so lucky lo...her mom so good prepare food for her ...sumore bring toothbrush and toothpaste
pz: like standard 1 kids nia , dont know how to buy food must bring food from house ..hahahah..
after finish sumore must brush her teeth...ahahahahah....
gl: why you so bad wan, dont laugh at people la .. u never bring food from home before meh?
pz: never, hahahah .. dont need my mom to prepare for me...very kolot lo .... old fashion la to bring food from home

ringggg********
HP: you have 10 seconds to line up
10, 9 , 8 , 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Prefects please write down the name of the girls who are late


.....this is what happening now
Year 2009 in University

Lunch box, Banana box, and Starbucks Tumbler
Ower: PZ

Moral of the story: Never laugh at other people..... hahahah......

thIs is baSed on a TruE lIfe sTory of eniAle bUT wIth aLOt of SpIces ANd sAuceS addEd iN. tHIs is cReatEd jUst fOR fUn aND laUghtEr fOR thE rEadErs aND dOEs NoT MeaN tO offEnsE aNYone oR any cOuntry.